family?
i should just vent and write everything here since I cannot turn to him cos it will be deemed as
“crawling out of your house hole” or neither can i talk to them cos it
will be deemed as twisting their words.
hmmm,
sometimes when you just want to explain yourself well enough, you just couldn’t and they will think
you twisted their words.
they are the ones who’ll put you in the most difficult position,
thinking that it’s the best for you and everybody and their way of thinking suits you best yet without having the
thought of
leaving you helpless, mixing up your feelings of frustration, sadness, unhappiness, dilemma which accumulates to a
boiling level and there it burst out in a blast.
with you yourself having to break the ice and solve it yourself for the fact that you’re 18 already.
did they ever think why I put it this way, and why are they asking me endlessly to think about it in their way, why can’t
they just,
think in my shoes why i am i thinking in my way for a split second?
yeah, maybe i’m just in the wrong, to think it my way.
hmmm
chronological age 18, biological age 10? Perhaps its like this.
just find that they are not in position to comment on issues like this because they don’t experience what i’m
experiencing and they are just commenting on what they see, that’s all.
zzz
